Monday, May 10, 2010

He's still workin' on me



Mother's Day weekend was more than I could ask for. M to the Izz-A went out of his way to make it special. We spent quality time together working on home projects, pushing baby dolls in strollers, eating pizza and waking up near tears with heartburn, and allowing craigslist to be our friend. We found ourselves a Sit and Stand stroller (can you believe I'll be needing one of those things?!) and some bar stools. From here on out, when in need of a new purchase, I will forever check craigslist first. Oh, Craig, you do me right.


With a special Mother's Day with Kate and M to the Izz-A come and gone, and baby Hamp on the way, I'm reminded of the kind of mother I wanna be. I continually pray that God will help me chip away the 'self' and put on the 'Christ-like'. And when I say that, I always think to myself, "He's gonna need a pretty big chisel." Especially when I think of those times when I've given something to God and ended up taking it right back.



I pray that He'll constantly show me areas that I need to work on, or even rid myself of completely, in order to be the kind of mother, wife, and woman of God that He has intended. I've learned that when you ask God to reveal areas of your life that you need to work one, be prepared, because He doesn't hesitate to show you. If I'm honest with myself, I could really come up with areas that need work on my own. I'm no stranger to my weaknesses and shortcomings for the most part, but I always want to make sure there's not an area I'm overlooking or justifying for my own comfort, which I've noticed in my own life is so easy to do. One thing's for sure, being a mom is often hard, and I mess up all the time, but it's comforting to me to remember that God's not up there shaking His head in shame or disappointment, but He's doing just the opposite, He's holding out His hand, helping me back up and showing me the way - His way. Not to mention, loving me all the way through it. It's just like the childhood song that keeps popping in my head whenever I talk about all this, "He's Still Workin' On Me". We're not finished products. It's not "what you see is what you get", it's "what you see is what you see right now, but I'm gettin' better!"



I've got a long way to go, I know that. Sometimes I sit and just think, "You completely blew it, Hollie." But then I'm reminded of the wonderful grace that God provides. I'm thankful for the salvation He has given me. And I'm thankful for the opportunity to be a mom...to love my wonderful gifts from God, Kate and Hamp, with all of my heart...to give them the best of me.









9 comments:

TheVanzants said...

Thanks for the reminder, Hol. Love you.

J-Diggety said...

Amen, sister. AMEN.

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Maey825 said...

Thanks for that awesome post :) seemed like perfect timing to read this because I too am going through a lot of personal revelations that aren't always pretty but are always necessary for me to become more and more Christ-like... we are all growing from glory to glory ONLY by the grace of God!! Thanks again for posting... God bless you and your family.

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Bridget said...

catching up on your blog. I know I keep saying this but you are the most beautiful pregnant girl. When was 9 months almost 200lbs there was nothing pretty about me..ha! I loved this post..praying for you. Can't wait to see Hamp. p.s. love Kate's outfit. Now, thats a character outfit I would allow my kids to wear haha!

Kelley said...

amen sister!

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